There were certain challenges I knew I would face when becoming a midwife. There are other challenges that I just didn't expect to face at such a frequent rate - my foot in my mouth being one of them!
Lately I have have been very convicted of my tongue. It is a message that God has been sending me for YEARS and I just keep failing over and over and over. There have been many times that I regret what I have said but there is little or no negative impact. There have been a few times when I have made comments that break that trust and relationship that I have with a woman coming to me for care. These are not comments said in anger or meant to harm, but they have possibly been spoken with the wrong motive on my part, in the wrong tone, or mainly just at the wrong time. In my mind, there has been some misunderstanding on the part of the woman, but the comment is said and the damage is done nonetheless.
How I wish I could erase these comments or at least convey my true regret and sorrow to these women for the hurt I caused. Even after heartfelt apologies, I can feel that the relationship is damaged.
I wish I had better control over my tongue - I pray for this often but not nearly enough. I ask for forgiveness and strength and wisdom to continue this path of bridling my willful tongue.
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